to be anonymous or non-anonymous
I’m conflicted if I should be linking my LinkedIn to this blog or even if I should be posting non-anonymously.
I wrote a post the other day talking about my ex and she asked me to take it down. The post talked about our sex lives and intimacy problems which I think lead to a lot of pressure on us eventually splitting up.
She asked me to take it down which, fair enough. I think I probably shouldn’t have posted that but… at the same time I did not like the feeling of what felt like censorship. It’s my story to tell too.
Because I’m on a not spending money kick; I asked ChatGPT, which when I’m feeling low enough has become my therapist, about it. It and said that I might consider having an anonymous blog to avoid the “social risk” of posting personal stuff.
But I don’t want an anonymous blog. I want to be me. The full me. For everyone to see.
But I get it. I also probably should just shut the fuck up and if I want to write like that I should do it anonymously. I could be more graphic, more cut throat, more mean.
Maybe that’s what I’ll do; this one I’ll keep more positive and light hearted and professional. And I’ll make an anonymous one that I can purely just vent through.
Or should I just write the mean post and let it sit in my notes and then delete it. I guess that’s why they call it Fear & Art.
At least that’s a book a read about making art. I really liked the book. Making art is really about confronting fear. Fear of rejection, of judgment, of your own biases. Of being different. Great book I’d recommend.
And making art is a large part about telling truth; and people hate truth. Well they like it but they don’t. People have mixed feeling about truth, I think is more accurate. They like the truth when it is about something they dislike or are indifferent about but don’t really like it when it’s about them.
It’s nice to be a member of the audience, hidden in the crowd. It’s a different feeling to be on stage with the bright lights for the audience to scrutinize.
Anyways those are my thoughts today. I will try to keep this blog a bit more professional going forward. With not as many call outs and keep it maybe more focused on I don’t know... other stuff.
Peace. ;P