something borrowed,
Sitting by a pool. Some people I know; some I don’t.
Mixed vibes.
Nice weather. Limbo. Disco.
Fished today. No bites.
Notifications on my phone. Expecting someone to reach out to me. Just a group chat for a geography game.
Self imposed loneliness. Want to connect but cannot. Want to be more but cannot.
Buy a course. Buy my course. Take a workshop. Purchase a book on how to connect.
Patience. Melt into my chair. Disappear.
All these people. Yet I am alone. Even the people I know don’t know. Don’t know me.
Or maybe they do. They just don’t like me. Or maybe I just don’t like me.
Or maybe I don’t even know me.
There was a girl here yesterday who was pretty.
I introduced myself and started talking to her friends. She left.
I wanted to talk to her more but instead I just went to bed.
It was a good sleep.
Food was good yesterday. Ceremony was good. All was good.
Something was off though. I don’t know what.
I don’t know what.
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