nothing much to say
I reread my last post and I don’t really like it. Too edgy and cryptic. Also, I’m pretty sure I’m using the wrong economic terms to explain the general idea. Or even if the general idea makes any sense.
Going golfing today with a childhood friend I haven’t seen in 5-6 years.
I bear crawled around the yard this AM to get my heart rate going and making up for a a few days of not working out.
I’m pretty bummed at the sacrifice in privacy you have to make to participate in today’s work force. It’s tough to keep private life private I find. Easy to overshare. I’d like to have more privacy. But also share more. But also be able to retract what I share or make it public again when I want.
Same for my data. It feels pretty violating that at essentially all times my movements across the internet are being tracked at an industrial level. And at any moment a company or government can look up anything you’ve done in the past at a whim. Photos, pictures, documents.
You don’t really have any say in the matter as most of life, social/professional/public/private/etc., all interact with a computer or phone in some way.
Being from a democratic country it just seems really antithetical to what was at once supposed to make our country great. Pursuit of your goals of your own free will. Rather than some weird force of social conformance.
It makes me sad. It makes me not really want to participate or strive for anything. It makes me feel like I don’t really own anything. Or that at any point it all could just be taken away. Makes the ground feel shaky and uncertain.
It’s very big brotheresque. The part where he looks at the screen and he knows that the screen is there and he is being video taped but is there someone actually behind the screen? Someone actually watching? It makes him question his every movement, it forces him into compliance with fear.
It’s hard to tell if this is mental illness or actual observation of reality.
Some days it feels like one. Others days the later.
Regardless it makes wanting to participate in life not very easy.