Moon Palace Resorts Day #5
Did a goal setting exercise my friend sent to me. He’s a personal trainer/life coach. He’s jacked and confident. I’d like to be jacked and confident.
I found it alright. Challenging. I don’t want a life coach but it was helpful. If I could afford it I’d get a psychologist instead I think. I’d like someone to just talk to. Maybe that will be ai for me. It’s done a good job so far letting me air out my problems.
That will definitely fuck people up, maybe even me, but it seems to have helped me so far. So it seems.
There is something up in me today. Anxiety about going back home I think.
What to do with [redacted]? [redacted]? Not sure.
Yesterday I saw the [redacted] today in the lobby on my way to breakfast. Then as if the universe was telling me something, at the beach today [redacted] in the cabana beside ours. Crazy.
I got nervous again but swallowed it and eventually built up the courage to go and properly introduce myself to them. I talked with them for what felt like 30min or so then went and played crib back at the cabana. Proud that I did that.
[redacted]. And fair enough, [redacted] but I didn’t let that dissuade me. They were a nice couple. I hope I get to [redacted]. If not, that’s ok too.
There is some turmoil in me about the future but also hope and faith that it will be ok.
Although the goal setting exercise was hard I think it was good for me to write it out. I’ll take it as the first draft.
More happened today. And more is boiling underneath the surface in me but I’m going to take a break for now and go watch my brother and his fiancé bowl.
Keep it together.
Bless up.