I'm gonna be honest with you… I… I'm kind of retarded.
I went swimming with my Grandpa this morning. If you read my last post unfortunately my sleep did not improve. I tried meditating. I tried flipping the pillow. I got up. I ate a bunch of granola that my mom made. Finished a left over chicken salad. Searched meticulously for any sign of candy or high sugar source of; fortunately with no success. Although the granola I think had honey or maple syrup on it; there was sweetness.
Sugar; oof. That’s a tough one to kick.
There is a lady teaching sign language to what look like two ladies with Down syndrome in the library today. It’s quite busy. It’s Friday. Recession indicator?
There is a construction fence up I think they are expanding the library. Interesting.
Sometimes I like to go to a store and just talk to sales people. Sales people are nice to talk in a cathartic kind of way. Sales people have to be nice to you. They will flatter you and tell you interesting stories and laugh at your jokes. They are a good surrogate if you have no friends.
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I wonder what that process in humans is called? The selection of a friend. The internal mechanisms at play that go into making a person select for a friend.
Friendship is really hard.
For me at least.
Lots of thoughts today. Lots of thoughts right now. Post something funny on LinkedIn. No don’t. Subsidize housing by putting live stream camera’s in peoples apartments like wild life cams or bird nest cams and people can donate to the tenant and watch them grow and change. Lens of observing humans as animals in a zoo. Who’s who in the zoo.
A play on words for geospatial. My computer dictionary is missing words. Keyboard problems. Gratitude, gratitude. Run away thoughts. Run away dreams. Day dreaming. I love day dreaming. It’s fun. It’s all the fun I need.
Running around. Tired after swimming. Thought I’d have slept well yesterday. Worked out and skipped (jumped rope). No dice. Bad sleep. Fat face. Please let me sleep. I hate when I can’t sleep. Everything falls apart when I can’t sleep. I haven’t slept well in a long time.
Ugh.
The snow is nice outside. I am looking forward to next week; it is supposed to be +16degC this time next week. Pretty exciting stuff.
I think I’m retarded. It definitely feels like that right now.