extremely excited. so scared i feel like puking.
About 30 minutes ago. I came to the realization that someone (a self described bearblog lurker) posted a comment on one of my podcast episodes.
It made me, extremely, excited.
The podcast episode was our 42nd episode. Posted February 12th. The person commented four days ago (the 18th).
The last time someone posted was to celebrate a guest we had on two years ago. The only other two comments we’ve ever received are spam “message for promo” type comments.
When I saw the comment I read it and responded. The comment was a well thought out response to a conversation my co-host and I had on race and privilege and being white and racism.
It was part educational, part critical. I think I agreed with everything they said; but was also a bit defensive.
Defensive because I’m timid about the subject matter. Timid about being seen as a bad person. Timid about being doxxed and laughed at and humiliated.
But I guess that is the price of admission.
Yelling into the ether for a year and finally getting a response is exciting and terrifying.
My cohost and I are doing an emergency recording tomorrow. Partly to respond, partly as a celebration of someone actually commenting.
As the title says, I’m excited but also nervous and feel like puking.
Thank you bearblog lurker. You know who you are!