dermis dilemma
In the dermatologist’s waiting room. He’s based up in a town in the mountains. It’s nice here.
It’s about an hour drive. I don’t mind the drive is nice.
It’s a very sunny day here. I feel a bit sad because my Aunt and Uncle live here but there is some… I don’t know. Distance I feel there.
Enough distance to not ask to come over. I talk so much about this place but they are really my only connection to it.
It’s a nice place but an expensive place. And I don’t have that much money.
Nice expensive places are hard to enjoy when you are poor. Or at least feel poor. It feels like if you touch something or look in the wrong direction you might get charged more than you’d make in a year.
That’s a kind of scary feeling. Just a feeling though.
I’m thinking what to do after the dermatologist. Maybe a walk. Maybe sit in a cafe and write. Or type is more accurate I guess.
Type something up on my phone. Something legible and not poetry.
I’ve been letting my writing devolve into poetry. I like that but I think it’s hard for you, the reader.
A quote I like, “the truth is like poetry; and most people fucking hate poetry”. lol. So yeah. Sorry dear reader for all the poetry lately. It’s been for me not for you.
The dermatologist is a strange cat. A lot of rumours about him.
I want to ask him if being a dermatologist is a good career.
I think he’s rich.
I want to be rich. It makes me think I won’t have any problems. I know that’s not true but it’s nice to dream.
I was listening to a podcast on the drive up here. It was a podcast with two comedians a doctor podcasted and a men’s health lifestyle podcaster. It made me think about how most podcasts are just a digital surrogate for friendship.
It made me feel lonely.
It made feel lonely because it’s true. It made me feel lonely because I do a podcast with my friend. It made me feel lonely because I laugh at the jokes and the stories these people tell and I feel familiar with them but they don’t with me.
It made me feel lonely when they read advertisements.
It made me feel lonely because I don’t have anyone to hang out with after the dermatologist.
It made me feel lonely because I don’t really have to go to the derm…
(later in the day)
I guess I did have to go to the dermatologist. They shaved a piece of this polyp I was worried about off my face for biopsy. He said he wasn’t too worried but wanted to be sure.
Glad I went.
I went for a walk after through a nature path nearby the office.
Canmore is really beautiful. Check it out if you ever get the chance. It is very scenic.
I had dinner back in Calgary at my grandparents. It was delicious. Now I’m watching the Montreal Canadians v. Carolina Hurricanes hockey game with my Nonno and my cousin.
It’s nice.
Overtime is about to start.
Let’s see what happens.