cleaning & organizing
I helped my mom clean out the back room by the mudroom/back door today. It felt good to help but also a recognition that she is someone that needs help too.
I told her my goal was to implement a system that works for the three of us to help keep the house decluttered. She was on board but also hesitant. We talked about the Midwestern Magic Cleaning YouTube video I had sent her… well I talked about it. I really like his approach and education of how ADHD/Autism/OCD/Neurodivergence manifests in someones living space.
I felt really seen listening to him and I really liked his strategies for tackling the clutter and setting up systems to help manage the space and manage the person/yourself.
I like the idea of utilizing the Pomadoro, allowing for a I don’t know pile, separating a large doom pile into more organized smaller doom piles that can be more easily sorted, being kind and gracious to yourself and others, and to ask for help.
I also like his teachings on knowing when you have and do not have capacity to take on a cleaning/organizing activity. His advice for breaking it down into the smallest bite size actions and focusing on one thing at a time. I find that really useful.
And I found that useful today talking and organizing and decluttering with my mom.
He also talks that for a lot of people they learned that cleaning is performative and that no matter what they do it’s not good enough; ultimatly because you are cleaning for someone else’s standards not their own. It’s a trauma response. And it manifests with deep resistance to cleaning in the first place. I STRONGLY identified with this. And still do. I am working on reworking my relationship with taking care of myself and a space and to cleaning/organizing in general. I am working towards doing it for me, because it’s an act of self care not a performance that is required to be loved.
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Hmmm.. dignity. What is the saying? Pride goueth with the fall? Yeah, looked it up “Pride goeth before destruction, and a haughty spirit before a fall.” Proverbs 16:18. Great saying.
How can I be more helpful… How can I serve more…. How can I get closer to God?
Hmmmmmmmm…. Big tough questions today.
Sound proofing in the office would be a good idea. So would an energy audit and probably solar panels. I guess the issue with that primarily is money. Hmmmmmmmm…. Does that work under the debt system? I guess that’s the funny thing about finance; the borrowing of future dollars today is the whole idea.
Watched some interesting videos yesterday/last night. Scanned a full binder of Grandpa’s [redacted] collection and it corrupted so I’ll have to scan it again… or well… I think my parents and Grandpa are going to end up wanting it destroyed (I.e. shredded).
I wonder where the idea of shredding and document control came from? I guess it connects with the idea of information control or the flow of information. The fidelity of the information, etc. That’s an interesting one.
In an organization I guess the flow of the info is important but it is also easily manipulated. Like really easily manipulated and it could be intentional or unintentional.
An interesting thought. Definitely the larger an organization gets (I.e. more people no necessarily more money) the more interests that get introduced that are incentivized to manipulation the flow of information in their favour. So how does an organization assure high fidelity information? Is it actually possible? Or is the individual the ultimate organizing unit because they know everything they see and are incentivized to benefit themselves?
An interesting thought.
There is some more elegant idea under all this that goes at the idea of a greater purpose which people can organize under to benefit all involved to an extent that outweighs manipulating the info for the one. But what is that? And how to get there I don’t know? Is that happening? I’m sure some places but in other’s not really. I think it’s a design of human ecology question.
I’m not sure where I sit on this at the moment. I think I’m trying to create an environment that benefits me for sure but also in a way that benefits the more holistic me which is the people around me because when they do good/feel good I tend to do good/feel good. I don’t know what the name of that dynamic is called but is something I feel deeply and I think value deeply. And I don’t really have the words to describe what it is. But I know it’s there.
I keep going back to the term God. And maybe that’s it. But I’m not entirely sure yet.
Anyways…
Working out here would be a good idea. I’m a bit scatter brained today. Seems like is a lot is going out of my control. And it is require me to trust others and that is scaring me a bit. I think at least.
I am not sure the name of the path I am on but I am sure it is mine.