car troubles
I am writing to you today from the back of an Uber. I drove all day in a truck that I knew had some problems but wasn’t immediately an issue.
I drove friends from out of town around and ended the day at a cocktail reception for a couple I know getting married. It was nice.
I saw many people I had not seen in a while. I was nervous about this event because I recently broke up with my girlfriend of ~10 years and had not told many people at this event.
There were awkward moments but on the whole it wasn’t that bad. Honestly, it was fun.
I felt bad because one of the girls there is close friends with my ex-girlfriend and it felt like I was responsible for denying her access to hang out with her friend. But, even then it wasn’t that bad.
Typing out or even saying ex-girlfriend feels weird. I’m sad we broke up but also relieved. I love her but it was a lot of pressure to be with her. I constantly felt like I was not enough for her and it made me hate myself for not being able to be great.
I’m sure that was more of a cope on my part and had nothing much to do with her. But it felt real and it’s been nice to just be a loser and live with my parents and not have to try to be put together.
I’m honestly enjoying being a loser. Being a loser is maybe a loaded term. I’m not being a loser, I guess I’m just being a human. Just being.
Lots to unpack there.
Regardless, fortunately the friends I drove to the reception went home in a different car and when I got to my car it refused to start.
I think it’s an issue with the starter. I thought about calling my friends in the other car to turn around and give me a jump but it felt too embarrassing. So I just sat in my car and prayed it would turn over and start.
It didn’t.
Eventually an other guy came out to his car in the parking lot and I asked him for a jump. The guy was really nice and I had a good conversation with him as we tried to boost my truck.
No luck. I don’t think it’s a battery problem. Me and the guy thought it sounds more like a starter problem.
I’m not very mechanically inclined. I watched some YouTube videos and asked chatGPT and prayed some more. Turned the key more than a couple times but no luck.
Downloaded Uber and ordered my saviour, Rishahb. We haven’t spoken a word besides me asking if he was for me. It’s been 30min and I’ve just typed up this story.
We are getting close to my home. Not sure how I’ll coordinate this car situation for tomorrow but I’m grateful I have my parents to lean on to help me through it.
Car troubles suck. Have a good day.