all the things on my mind this morning

05 Feb, 2026

just journaled in the nanny suite for an hour or so. Found it tough. Many thoughts about many things today. Nice weather we are having.

Want to do this and that and this and that and this and that. So many things it’s overwhelming. Here is a list:

• Set up open claw ai assistant
• Plant a garden
• Organize the house
  • Clean my room
  • Clean the nanny suite
  • Clean the office
• Shovel remaining snow into cisterns to hold water for garden I want to plant
• Fix rv sitting in the field
• Fix ford flex to be quitter for long road trips
• Fix trucks to be quitter for long road trips
• Organize a dinner party
• Cook something tasty
• Organize a trip
• Organize a hyrox or workout class with neighbour
• Organize a concert or fundraiser for a new car for friend
• Host events here at Mom & Dads
• Family therapy
• Family Enterprise Advisor accreditation but also hire one for the wider family
• Family systems
• Give up phone and computers and screens
• Read books
• Do a master’s, go back to school
• Mine more Monero
• Start a militia or political party
• Start a religion
• Start a union
• Start a movement
• Be a journalist
• Watch YouTube videos
• Ignore [redacted]. Rekindle relationship with [redacted]. Marry [redacted].
  • Do none of the above
  • Stop thinking about [redacted]
• Let all of this go
• Meditate and detach
• Hustle and flow
• Grind and get somewhere
• Run in circles
• Gain enlightenment
• Dig a hole
• Dig a ditch
• Give up
• I don’t know…
• Everything and nothing at the same time

So yeah that’s most of what’s on my mind today. There is other stuff but I don’t know how to write about it or talk about or form words to describe it. It’s a feeling. A feeling of yearning. Want. Want for something, for change, for things, for meaning.

Meaning. I think I have it. It’s... So fleeting though. It’s one of those things that as soon as you reach out to grasp it, it disappears and moves. It’s never quite finished. It’s never quite done.

Will I do any of this stuff? I don’t know. I guess I could and I guess I couldn’t. I don’t know what. I’m going to do.

I never really do.

Have a good day.